Tuesday, July 19

Jubilance

Mind blown. Fucking mind-blowing.
Intellectual orgasm just happened. I can barely withstand the adrenaline and dopamine flowing in my body now.

James Clear, Mark Manson, Richard Koch, Oliver Emberton, Tim Urban, Elon Musk.
The things that I have learnt in the past 6 months completely outweigh my 16 years of learning through formal education.

Unstoppable, unbreakable.
I shall exercise mild control now, but explosions are inevitable :P
It's gonna happened soon, very soon.

Monday, July 11

Eureka!

Two years and half of a month.
741 days of struggles, the end.

I want to, and I have to thank a few persons who have given me life-saving helping hands throughout these two years. My Caregroup's teammates, my parents, Ms. Jennifer Lee, Mr. James Clear, Mr. Richard Koch, Mr. Mark Manson, Mr. Tim Urban, all the dedicated artists on U Can U Bibi, and all the cute faces whom I have met in Indo-China last summer.

Thank you for your talismanic wisdom and remarkable teachings that aided me through my darkest days, which I couldn't imagine where would I be if I have not ran into all of you.

I struggled the awful. I tussled the horrendous. I battled the arduous. I sipped the unorthodox. I voiced the paradoxical. I embraced the inferior. I saw the wider.
I befriend adversity. I shunt platitude and preach consistency.

And I am home.
I am back, back to a paradigm which is similar to that of 5 years ago.

But it is no longer similar.
It had escalated. It had escalated to a whole new world.

Euphoria.
Eureka.

Eureka!




Monday, July 4

温柔

一直来都以为要锻炼肌肉都是要吃高蛋白低碳水化合物的饮食,但今天发现到这是完全错误的观念。
顿时发现原来连锻炼肌肉也和做事的原理一样,要慢慢来,比较快。
如果硬要拔苗助长,只会弄巧反拙。
这让我想起一位读工程系朋友跟我说的“除非有外在元素,能源都是永远呆在它最原始的状态”,与牛顿第一法则有点相似的原理
还有之前学到的,觉得非常不可思议的帕雷托法则(80/20)。

那么多年的科学与逻辑性教育让我不怎么相信上帝的存在,
但有一位信奉基督教的朋友非常不屑地谴责我说:“只是你还没遇到吧了。”
呵呵,如果上帝真的存在的话,我觉得他真的好好,他把这世界编织地那么从容,那么温柔。
所有事情,无论是做事,与人相处,爱情,事业,学习,追求成就,甚至是锻炼肌肉,都是要从容地进行。
我们只需做最重要的20%罢了,activation energy不是蛮力,它是四两拨千斤。
这是上帝的宽容与智慧,是世界的美妙与和谐。

很喜欢和妈妈聊关于健康饮食所需的材料和烹饪方法,以前她煮菜都不怎么健康,但现在的她真的是不可同日而语,好厉害。

以前每当周边事情都忽然之间变得非常顺遂时,会开始担心噩耗的来临。
但现在不同了,我知道,顺流固然美好,但逆流而上一样精彩。



Sunday, July 3

抬头看

第734天。
这两年我最常听到的话是“哎呀,是你想太多啦”,“不要把东西复杂化”,“做就是了”。
我知道所有说这些话的人都是有好心的出发点,但好心不是天山雪莲,不是灵丹妙药
你好心把钱丢给一个失去家人痛不欲生的人,你好心帮一个有能力自己完成事情的残疾人完成他的事,这些“好心”还真的令人汗颜。
这种不经思索,未经深入探讨的“好心”,在某种程度上比干坏事还更严重。

我开始在想,到底是不是二十一世纪的时代改变,让那么多人失去了深入思索的能力,还是纯粹只是身边的人没有经历我所经历的。

面对问题时,东方人自然的会说:”哎呀,没事啦。”,以作安慰之用途。
站在问题面前搏斗,最有效的,不是安慰,而是接受,承认。承认它的存在,接受它的强大,与之搏斗。
发生问题时,西方人自然的会说:"I feel sorry for you."
问题找上了你,根本无需觉得可悲,问题是成长前的黄昏。
而那成长,将会是天空中最闪亮的星。

一直以为身边仍是一片漆黑,但星星早已发亮。

Friday, July 1

另一種不一樣的成功

我爸媽出生平凡,甚至可以說是沒什麼好身世。
媽媽是一家七口的長女,從小就得背負很多很多照顧家庭的責任,每次都聽她說小時候就學會煮哪道菜和縫紉衣服的故事,總覺得就是那些責任讓她沒辦法接受到更好更高的教育。
爸爸一出生就被父母遺棄,被我阿嬤領養,可以想像那樣的身世有多麼的困難。爸爸做過好多好多份工作,從派送報紙的,到送貨的,賣保險的。
他們倆都在中學後就停止接受教育了,他們在人生中沒完成什麼很偉大很成功的事,與社會上所謂的成功人士如醫生律師也掛不上邊,就連在社會最前端的英文和科技方面也不怎麼樣,爸爸更是完全不諳英文,就連國語也是“一塊塊”的。
以前的我覺得我們家是屬於中產階級,但後來我們家拮据到把車子房子都給賣了,才發現我們連中產階級都不是。

這樣的身世和背景,給一些人或許早就渾渾噩噩過餘生,甚至是結束了生命。
但我爸媽沒有。

我真的不知道他們是怎麼樣撐過來的。
總覺得他們真的真的好厲害,是出於泥而不染,出類拔萃的典範。
縱使沒有學歷,他們有的是人文素養,崇高的道德價值觀,還有頑強的人生態度。
每次聽到哪一個阿姨叔叔伯伯姑姑的孩子的一大堆故事,從叛逆,到亂花錢,輟學,染上惡習等等,我都覺得:“誒,怎麼我跟他們完全不同?”
因為有那麼好的你們,才有今天的我。
你們給的,是最好的身教。

感謝這兩年的香港與台灣之旅,讓我重新認識你們,發現了你們一些一直以來都被我忽略的好,也發現了你們一些我想要改變的壞習慣。
好喜歡媽媽那一份對所有小事都好有耐心好愛的心,好愛爸爸那超級高的情商。

我還有好多好多事情要和你們一起完成。
我還要教你們英文,還要教會你們用電腦。
我還要向媽媽學習煮菜,我還要聽爸爸說很多很多故事。
我還有好多好多事情要和你們一起完成。




Wednesday, April 20

Things Don't Matter When You Die

I have missed out too many things.

I missed attending important events of important people. I missed enjoying wonderful moments with the loved ones. I lost the opportunity to connect deeply with great people, I lost the chance to love and to be loved.

I feared instead of cheering. I pushed instead of encouraging. I avoided instead of learning.

I ran the wrong way, being oblivious that there is just another way beside me.

If today were the last day of your life, will you still do what you are about to do today?


Tuesday, April 19

Simplicity

If today were the last day of your life, will you still do what you about to do today?
When the answer has been no for too many days in a row, I know I have to change something.

If today were the last day of my life, I shall throw away all negative thoughts, no matter how big they are. I shall look at the positive, the wonderful, the kind, the happy.

Letting go could be painful. But there lies the blessing in disguise.

I shall simplify. I shall be simple. I shall focus.
And then, cherish, run, persist, go.
I shall enjoy the hardest as the simplest.