Sunday, April 30

Dont read this

Information (books, video clips, articles, magazines) are meant to help you to achieve certain aims. That creates a huge paradox. People who need information the most won't read things. People who read alot alot of things are people who don't need those information. People who need Facebook the most to facilitate communication don't use Facebook that often. People who use Facebook very often are the people who don't need the instant communication. Book writers and Facebook are making the most amount of money on information, creating information tsunami which leads to analysis paralysis. Unless you find it entertaining to watch tutorials. Which I think is pretty weird. I found it more fun to cook myself than to sitting in front of a cooking show watching the cook teaching me how to cook. I found it more fun to go down to field to play the sports myself .

Tuesday, March 7

最不make sense的一篇文

好累。
非常努力地熬过了四个月(还是其实是两年?),却总感觉自己有几千几万里路要走。
是自己那把尺过长吗?还是它缺乏的是伸缩性?

究竟天意是可违,还是不可违
究竟我应该相信慢条斯理系的“顺其自然”
还是应该相信作死派的“命运在自己手里”

前者说好事自然会发生,冥冥中自有安排,道不可违,宇宙万物自然界定律不可,也不可能逆,太阳地球月亮宇宙都有自己的轨道,作息和法则。
后者说人是完全由身边的人和环境所主宰的,只要有对的方法和励志的伙伴及环境,所有极限都能被突破。

如果前者是对的话,那为什么人类史上有那么多绝地反击的逆袭故事,有那么多一个有一个创造历史突破人类极限的神人?为什么我们能够在一次又一次的灾祸中生存,突破并创造巨变?为什么那么多的寒门子弟能够卧薪尝胆突破重围,为什么我们能一次又一次的创造革命,创造了各种各样神奇的工具,机械,高楼,科技?为什么人类这品种当中有那么都出类拔萃的作家,音乐家,诗人,舞蹈家,演员,导演,摄影师,画家,国家领导人,运动员,健身巨人,智商破表的天才,智力过人的科学家,思想家,创业家?在人类史里,他们个个都是极其伟大的神话。

如果后者是对的话,那又怎么解释天地山水的形成,那又怎么解释世界从哪来,生命从哪来,地球星星月亮从哪来,太阳系银河系和宇宙从哪来。为什么宇宙那么他妈的大,为什么外太空那么的暗,那么地恐怖,为什么其他星球什么鬼都没有,为什么所有星球都有固定的轨道永远不脱轨(它们的自制力那么强吗),为什么太阳那么他妈的热(我常想想如果把一个人送到太阳会怎样,想到就毛骨悚然),为什么有地心吸力,为甚么有能量,究竟我是什么,人是什么,存在是什么,究竟是不是有人(神)在上面看着我们干什么,究竟是不是所以事情都已经安排好?

如果前者是对的话,那人生好没趣。
如果后者是对的话,那人生好辛苦好恐怖。

比起其他在地球上的生物,我们人还真的是万物之王,叱咤风云,呼风唤雨。
比起全宇宙,我们人只是在千万颗星球里其中一颗沙尘里用显微镜都看不见的微生物。
我们认为我们非常渺小,但其实我们有着改变千万种东西的可能。
我们自以为是万物之王,但其实我们只是在一个小角落自high。

却想就觉得越confused, 第一次觉得认输才是王道,第一次觉得就算不懂任何东西也不要紧,第一次不再想要控制我的人生。

或许,不再去纠结什么是天意,才是真正的天意。
I learned to be humble in these few months. I never think myself as an arrogant kid and I always think that I am humble enough. But this humility is something extraordinary, something absolutely grounded. Be humble, until there is no limit.

Sunday, December 11

Woo!

Overwhelming. And this time it overwhelms in the soft side.

In a world that rewards big achievements and hoo-ha's and that doesn't value small things, buying a dinner for someone, coming over to someone's place to meet him/her, remembering someone's birthday and actually do something, buy a little gift, bring over a piece of cake, sending gratitude or calling someone for gratitude, all of these looked so unimportant and trivial, but they are so important.

Remember, at the end of the day, true love and care are everything. Everything else is secondary. No competition, Clear cut and outright defeat.

Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude. 

Life doesn't need to be so hard. 

The end goal is to have both. It is equally important to live life and to save the world. And it is scientifically, mathematically and clearly doable to do both. 

"At the end of my life, I will never miss working for more hours, I will never miss writing one more passage, I will never miss chasing something more. But I will definitely miss drinking that bottle of beer with Arnold. I will miss having that long-night talk with Lauren. I will miss hanging out with Tim and Jane. Life is too short to be busy."

Saturday, December 10

Life Long Mission: Be Wise

10 months. Enough of shits.

If you ask someone who is currently studying a degree to quit college, he/she will freak out.

If you ask someone to go nuts and finish their money travelling the world before coming back to work, he/she thinks that you are insane.

If you ask someone to put failures instead of achievements in resume, he/she thinks what the hell are you thinking.

If you ask someone to do business without working experience, he/she laughs at you thinking that you will fail soon.

Too funny. Too many people would advise you to do A and B and C. Too many disagreed with unorthodox methods and went on to tell you that "This is not the right way. You should do it like D and E."

And this is a perfect match for the term coined by Tim Urban, "Tribalism".

Fear and anxiety are such real things that stop humans from conquering so many wonders. 

The real way to live life is to determine 2-3 knife-tipping indicators and act with the existence of them.

Next time if you want to test the wisdom and intellectual ability of a person, ask them:
"Is having a job better than unemployment?"
"Is having a relationship better than being single?"
"Is being rich better than being poor?"
"A criminal and a civilian, who is a good guy?"

If the answers are all a no-brainer absolute immediate yes, you know that the person is sickeningly dogmatic having his/her reasoning skills flushed into the toilet bowl. 

Wednesday, December 7

Retrospection

*If stress is the answer for not doing things, then success will never come to you. If give up is the answer, then don't have a goal in life, you won't achieve it.

*Faith is very fair to those who worked hard.

*Do not afraid of failure, just be afraid that after you have failed for the first time, you don't believe that success will come anymore.

*There are millions of reasons that convince you to not to do a thing, but if you found one reason to do it, go for it, because you heart tells you to do so.

*The more you look down at me, the more that I want to prove to you that I can.

*Don't worry, nothing cannot be solved and through mistakes we learn and grow the most. Cheers!
Tonnes and tonnes of challenges and problems exist in life, and the true value of life is to go through them and solve them.

*GIP is not for talent gap filling, it's meant for the EP's, it is meant for leadership. We must do it, we must drive it no matter what.

*But I know there is a medicine who can cure someone who is dying, it is called 'positive mindset'.

*If you have the strong will, you can even pluck down the moon from the sky. When you are determined and passionate enough towards something, nothing can defeat you.

*You are treating yourself badly when you don't even properly do the things that you want to pursue. In life when we do something, we do the very best we can. Ask yourselves whether you have done your very best or not.

Cool. My values and determination in life were really unreasonably strong and unshakable, as well as my firm beliefs in putting people first and treating people in the best manner that I can. 


In order to jump off the cliff and fly, you need to know how to fly, you need to believe that you can fly, you need to realise that flying is so important & urgent and you have no other choices.

Lastly and most importantly, you need to jump and fly.

Saturday, December 3

100% Honesty

How funny it is to see the 3-year-ago me using the first person angle of the today-me. In other words, see the past retrospectively using hindsight.

There were many shameful things to reflect upon. Like I was extremely (the word 'extremely' is still an understated adjective to describe, in my opinion) ignorant about the importance of money. I talked shits like 'Don't think about money, the main thing about travelling is to open your world view'. And I took things like 'values', 'happiness', 'learning', 'relevance' as some magical holy sacred Pandoras created by Jesus. I wanted to be the best Buddha that never offend anyone. I clung on every single unimportant and redundant fine details like a koala bear yet I easily over theorised & generalised complicated stuffs into empty big concepts that didn't help but made things more intertwining and sticky. I only thought the big concepts/theories about a plan , and its first step, but the following steps were always empty (and I assumed 'all is well'), and things never happened.

And all of those are not the main points. The main point is:
I did all of those things WITHOUT REALISING that I was doing them!


The ironic and embarrassing thing is that I was the one who kept telling everyone to put themselves as a tiny dot in the ecosystem but not center of the universe. The biggest secret that I kept from myself is that I was the one who put myself at the centre 24/7! Proudly, shamelessly and idiotically.

I viewed myself as a king that could command the world, and thought that everyone else was inferior towards me. I sensed things shallowly and lived in my own world. All of those happened for only one reason:
I feared the ultimate self awareness, I feared that people will come to my face and tell me the most truthfully ugly truths. I had a brittle fragile little useless heart.

I think there were a significant numbers of people who disagreed with me and viewed my actions as some funny useless shits. But I never knew and I wasn't aware at all, because I never bothered to ask others about their opinions towards me. And people never tell you the ugly truth because no one would ever tell things to get upset faces in return. They started sugar-coating unintentionally (with good intent and trying not to hurt me) when they were speaking to me. Those who really cared about me told me real stuffs but I chose to disagree and in fact argue with them, thinking that I was the 'right one' with my bastard ego.

That was good in the sense that the blissful ignorance gave me a lot of amazing courage to march forward without single doubts. At the same time it was so bad in long run as I didn't face my true-self to nurture the real confidence. The real confidence and self-esteem only can be raised after falling hard enough to face the real version of yourself.

The lesson is about humility that doesn't defeat confidence. Accept that I am bad in many senses, I am inferior than many others. But that doesn't mean that I couldn't do great things. Confidence must be there always, side by side with humility. They are great rivals and great friends for life.

I have been afraid of being the real one in my entire life. I have always been afraid to jump into the pool and accept shits on my face. Define your worst shits and just jump into the pool to face them

And I started doing this. Right now!

And I have almost forgotten this cool blog : http://wednesdaydailies.blogspot.my/2013/03/wd5-discovery-archeology-is-dirty-job.html
:P

Tuesday, November 1

No title

Life is cyclical.
以前单纯地认为精神就是一切,只要有信念,
努力奋不顾身地去争取,就一定会得到
That's a real pain at the same time real joy, the blissful ignorance of fighting for things that seem impossible yet painful to give up on.

后来一直失败,人家开始跟你讲你这个做错了,那个应该那样做
开始研究所有的‘怎样’和‘如何’

但所有的‘怎样’和‘如何’都没用解决问题的根本
最后才发现原来精神和信念才是最根本的元素
绕了一大圈,又回到同样的原点,只是这一次起跑的人不在是同一个以前的我了。

On a macro level every single thing and every single people is the same.
要用macro level的精神看世界。
You control every single piece of things that happened to you.

It's weird to see how people who are in same age of mine, people who we used to do the same thing, are now doing entirely different things. I view the things that they do as childish, but they view the things that  I am doing stupid too.

It's scary to see that how dynamic life is.